ONE OF THOSE DAYS..

... where you just want to throw in the towel and call it a day. I don't even know where to begin with this day. Maybe it started in the weee hours of the morning with Lily running a fever, or perhaps it was Ayden who just needed to nurse all night...but somewhere, the evil one had a hay-day testing our family today! I went to a homeschooler's meeting this morning which was incredibly encouraging and wonderful, so the fact that today was filled with attack should not be a surprise since homeschooling is just begging for attack anyway. But, I could tell Anjolie was having more trouble than usual controlling her emotions...a storm was brewing! Then right after the homeschooling meeting, I had another appointment which I knew was going to push her overboard since it was running over her nap time, but there was no way I could break it. Anjolie behaved terribly, Lily cried the entire 2 hours...Ayden cried for some of it, and Brianna did not cry, but pouted! It looked and felt a lot worse than it sounds. I was so heartbroken...and I know that is how God must feel when we are trained and taught then tested and stumble. I am so discouraged because, the worst part was...no excuses...I ranted and raved at them once we were in the car about how awful they behaved. I was so wrapped up in my disappointment that I forgot about my whole purpose in training them. Training them up to love and serve the Lord with love and grace. I totally failed today because I was relying on myself instead of God...oh wait...I was planning on going to visitation tonight since I missed Tuesday...grr...I was blindsided (or should that be blindsighted) again!