Friday, May 08, 2009

She Returns...

...and it is bittersweet. I have trouble "facing" my blog, and that may sound strange but it is true. This micro-dot in the cybersphere is a sort of distant "home" to my heart, and we all know, it isn't always easy to come "home". Things are never the same are they?

Seems so very strange to me that my heart can feel so heavy yet be in complete acknowledgment that God is on the throne. The experience of His Grace and the experience of the trials necessary to understand that His Grace is all sufficient, render me speechless most times. Oh, I can muster little "blurbs" on FB but to actually come here...home, to hit the pressure release valve on my heart and pour it all out onto this glaring white screen like old times, is something I am finding more and more difficult to do. The trials and burdens I am used to sharing, no longer consist of the every day consequences of a large family with a focus challenged homeschooling mommy trying to make it through the day with a clean house to boast....no...our worlds now are forever changed aren't they? Each and every one of us now bear the worry of what tomorrow will hold in this very changed nation. Then, there are the hurts and burdens of friends, loved ones...dire circumstances and health situations that seem to be of such gravity that the English language limits us to even share with one another the depths of the sorrow we feel over these circumstances. Praise the Lord, He makes intercession for us...because, I'll be honest friends, I just don't have the words, only the tears to show for the white knuckled pleading in my heart. I'm so thankful that sometimes even to say the name of Jesus is enough to flood my heart with a sense of comfort....His name and all that it means to my heart helps to focus my mind. Just to lift my flesh bound hands and say His name brings such release when I remember all that He did on the cross. His very name holds more meaning than I could write in a life-time. My precious Lord Jesus, let me never fail to find comfort in letting my burden rest on your ever listening ear...

18 comments:

missy said...

(((Hugs)))

I know.

I live IN Jesus said...

Oh Heather! How I miss your heartfelt, touch me deeply, blogging! My soul resonates with ALL that you write! It truly is very refreshing for this believer to be able to "hear" another christian verbalize the VERY things that weigh me down! I love your spirit, you are such an honest woman of God....Thank you for that. And may our Lord and Saviour, Jesus Christ richly bless you with a deeper walk with Him than you have EVER experienced!! God bless
Sarah T

HOPE said...

I have missed hearing from you too!

Your post was very heart touching and so very real...

Yes..at His very name..we should indeed find Comfort!

To rest in him...day by day...and know that He is in control..and knows every way of man.

He is faithful..that promised!!

Hugs to you Heather...
HOPE

Mrs. Julie Fink said...

happy mothers day dear one.

Lisa said...

Your post was such a Blessing to me Heather. If I could not put my Faith in the Lord I don't know how I would ever exist! God Bless you and Happy Mother's day!

Danielle said...

hey miss h,it's great to see you back here!

Steve n Vickie said...

Come to me all ye heavy laden and I will give you rest. God will get you through this tough time. Thanks for sharing.

Anonymous said...

Hi Heather, I'm so glad I came online tonight- and happened to want to check on your blog! Now I can be praying for you and your husband. You guys are the heroes. I pray tons of friends and family all around you during this time. And Psalm 121.
He will never let go of you, if I know one thing in life that is all I know and all that I need to know. He never let's go of His children. Never. Never. Not in any place, mentally or physically. Prayed huge wings of the warmest love of God you and your family have ever known over all of you, for every moment. I don't get on my blog much either, but if you have FB still I have a link to me on my blog to there. I am going to keep praying for you.
-Stacey Hoffman
Stacey's at the foot of the cross again.blogspot.com

Anonymous said...

I had to put it through as anonymous blogger is being wierd.! Sorry :)

Natalie (Nyquist) Ference said...

To Whom it May Concern;

On April 12 the Young Ladies Christian Fellowship permanently removed me from any participation on the site. Since they have chosen to publicly state no further ties or affiliations with me, I decided to also make a public statement.

For my full statement please visit this page on my website: http://natalienyquist.wordpress.com/2009/05/20/announcement/

Please pass this statement on to anyone you know who has been a YLCF reader. Thank you for your assistance in this matter.

Tori said...

Oh how beautifully written. I can feel your heart in this post and it's lovely.
Praying for whatever it is that is trying you so.

Rebekah said...

Oh Mrs. Y, you know you do indeed have a 'home' here...we love and miss you, you can log in and talk anytime or just simply say "I'm hurting" or "I need prayer" and you know we'll rally around you and come to the throne room with you. We're here for you!
Love,
Bekah

CONNIE'S THOUGHTS FROM THE HEART said...

I love meeting you in other places but on here the words you write always stir my heart and cause me to give praise and thanksgiving to the Lord. I hope you never quit. Your post are a blessing to so many. Hope your week has been good and fruitful. love to you and your family. connie

staceyhoff said...

Checking in on you...

staceyhoff said...

How are you, Heather? Just checking in; it's July 5th.xoxo

A Note From Theresa said...

Just letting you know that I restarted my blog. same address but it will have all new topics. I pray that you and your family are well and hope to hear from you soon.

Theresa of A Note From Theresa

Theresa's Notes said...

New and Private Blog/A Note From Theresa

I've had a person coming over to my blog and take what I said and posted it on her blog and said nothing but ugly things about it. And say ugly things about the people I love.

I don't want this person doing this again so I am making a new blog with a private invite to it.

please send me emails so I can invite you in. Thank you, to all my good friends.

theresamcentire@yahoo.com send me your name and email address to my email. Thank you

P.S this blog will not be used any more and deleted soon.

Time is running out, This blog will be deleted Monday Morning, so please send me an email if you want to follow my private blog.

~~Deby said...

I saw your comment at Julie Finks and thought *she's back*......oh come on...we miss you..
Deby
who dropped out of FB world.