Tuesday, May 27, 2008


He has somewhat against me in my lack of consistancy and my coolness towards Him....I have left my "first love" in my abandonment of the "vision" He has given me. Vision as in being faithful in the little things...*ahem*. It shows in my frustration, lack of organization...yeah, I've been here more times than I would like to admit. Defeated? No....learning, growing, moving on. And, I'm on my knees...again...and again. The following broke spoke to my heart today...I found it- rather, the Lord brought it to my attention, whilst I was off on a tangent researching some other "Biblical things" that interested me...but should have been attending to the "little" things. Yeah...the fact that my research was *ahem* Biblical, did not mean it was allowed to monopolize my time, and not just today, this has been going on for a while now...these "bunny trails" if you will.

(To the church of Ephesus, a famous church planted by the apostle Paul (Acts 19))

"I know thy works, and thy labour, and thy patience, and how thou canst not bear them which are evil: and thou hast tried them which say they are apostles, and are not, and hast found them liars: And hast borne, and hast patience, and for my name's sake hast laboured, and hast not fainted. Nevertheless I have [somewhat] against thee, because thou hast left thy first love."
Rev 2:2-2:4

Matthew Henry wrote..."Those that have lost their first love must remember whence they have fallen; they must compare their present with their former state, and consider how much better it was with them then than now, how much peace, strength, purity, and pleasure they have lost, by leaving their first love,—how much more comfortably they could lie down and sleep at night,—how much more cheerfully they could awake in the morning,—how much better they could bear afflictions, and how much more becomingly they could enjoy the favours of Providence,—how much easier the thoughts of death were to them, and how much stronger their desires and hopes of heaven." (I added the bold)

edited to say...I'm not in any way trying to be some spiritual giant in this "research"...it's just that chasing bunny trails is so much more fun than say putting away the 3 loads of crumpled up laundry in my linen closet...does that paint a more accurate picture?


Happymama said...

Oh yeah...picture being seen perfectly well...So well, as a matter of fact, I believe it's hanging on my wall!


Rebekah said...

I think I'm living your "picture" :-s

Thank you for the insight, it's a blessing.
(And it seems that having a birthday party two weekends in a row is a good incentinve to get things done)

Pam--in Jerusalem said...

Good lesson, Heather. It's so easy to get off course and let our priorities get misplaced. You're not the only one who needed this lesson! At least your bunny trail was Bible research and not blogging/computer time ;)

Heather said...

Pam *ahem* it actually WAS computer Bible research...in part...the other part was Wilmingtons and then blog time....yep...there it is :)

HOPE said...

Excellent lesson Heather.

I love you honest insite and sharing that help all of us!

Too oft we let the world/things around us rob our time and neglect the WORD that GOD uses to speak to our hearts personally.

As I write my blog...that past state of complete! trust and peace...remind me once again of that daily walk that is still so vital and what God wants from me.

HE has so much to give...we love him because he FIRST loved US!

God bless you Heather!

Dawn said...

You have done some great bunny trail research! Amazing that you have (or take) time to do so with home schooling and having 4 little children. Good for you!

Happy birthday to your big little girl!

Thanks for stopping by - please come again! My daughter needs your prayer Wednesday morning at 9:30 a.m., MST. I have no idea when that is over there! But God does!

missy said...

GREAT word. Convicting, to be sure! Oh, and how I love that word...nevertheless. There was a time in my Christian walk when that word was my anchor. Thanks for bringing it back into the forefront of my mind. I needed that.

Heather said...

Hope-"Too oft we let the world/things around us rob our time and neglect the WORD that GOD uses to speak to our hearts personally."so true...you are such an encouragement....did you email me about when your daughter is coming out? I hope I get to meet her and YOU!!

Ms Dawn...that's the thing I am not doing it when I *really* have the time...I should be doing laundry! :) Naptime and an early bed time is usually the time I use for my devotion time/blog time...it ends up being bunny trail times!

Missy..that word pierced my heart yesterday. Yes, I need to keep it at the forefront of my mind as well.